It took about a month for me to come back to reality after the Labor Day weekend trip to Nashville in 1955. I went through my days in a fog daydreaming about Bill, the guy I met.
September 6, 1955 (Tuesday) Dear Diary, I’ve really felt rough today. I doubt if I’ll ever see Bill again, but I love him and I mean it.
September 7, 1955 (Wednesday) Dear Diary, I transferred from the Accounting Department to the Life Department at work today. It is a much bigger department and I will make a little more money. I hope I like it.
September 9, 1955 (Friday) Dear Diary, Peggy and I went up to the Nibble Nook tonight. Saw Dee. I wish I could hear from Bill.
September 10, 1955 (Saturday) Dear Diary, What a day. I fainted this morning. Mary Glenn and Peggy went with Dee and me to the movie tonight. We saw “Man without a Star”.
September 13, 1955 (Tuesday) Dear Diary, Mary Garner and Bill came over tonight. We went up to the Nibble Nook. Dee was there. We all went up to the lake.
September 14, 1955 (Wednesday) Dear Diary, I wish I could hear from Bill, but he doesn’t have my address, nor do I have his.
September 15, 1955 (Thursday) Dear Diary, I had a terrible dream last night. I dreamed I found Bill but he was dead. I went to the Tivoli and saw “Love is a Many Splendored Thing”. I loved it.
And, that dream was probably my subconscious telling me what I already knew in my heart; that Bill was essentially “dead” to me.
September 16, 1955 (Friday) Dear Diary, I wish Allen were here. I know I really love him. I guess Bill was just infatuation.
September 17, 1955 (Saturday) Dear Diary, My family and I went to the Smokies today with Allen’s parents. Mary Glenn went, too. We camped out. We’re going home tomorrow.
September 19, 1955 (Monday) Dear Diary, Peggy and I went to the County Fair at Warner Park tonight. Met Dee and a guy named Jimmy there. They took us to see the girlie show, “French Quarters”. It was kinda silly. I wish Allen were here.
September 20, 1955 (Tuesday) Dear Diary, Dee comes by the bus stop every morning and takes Peggy and me to work. Tonight Peggy and I ate supper with Shelby and Jimmy.
Dee worked in South Chattanooga. He had three uncles who managed the Chattanooga Sausage Company and he worked for them as a manager of a packing company apart from the main building where the animals were slaughtered. They were wholesale dealers for beef and pork. Peggy and I both worked in downtown Chattanooga, so it wasn’t out of his way to take us to work. He picked us up at the bus stop because I still hadn’t told my family about him. After I did introduce them, and started dating him more, he kept my mother supplied with fresh meat, which she loved.
September 22, 1955 (Thursday) Dear Diary, I am sick with a bad cold and didn’t work today. You know I really miss Allen after all this time. I still love him so much.
September 23, 1955 (Friday) Dear Diary, Felt better today and went to work. I went to the fair tonight. Saw Allen’s parents. Saw the “Dancing Waters” show. It was pretty.
September 24, 1955 (Saturday) Dear Diary, Peggy and Paul got married today. I hope she hasn’t made a big mistake. I stayed home tonight. I told mother about Dee. She seems o.k. with it.
At this point, I had known Dee almost a month and we had dated a few times. During October, we stepped up the pace and started going out three or four times a week, mostly to the drive-in movie. I was still keeping everything “casual” and thinking about Allen.
September 29, 1955 Thursday, Dear Diary, I still hear from Allen almost everyday and I still write him everyday. I wish it were this time next year. We will probably be married. I hope so. I really love him.
I did manage to eke out a little social life apart from dating Dee and writing Allen. Mary Glenn and I joined “Career Girls”. A club for working girls sponsored by the YWCA. They met every Thursday at the Y for dinner, dancing and swimming if you wanted. We went to most of the Thursday night meetings that fall and it was a lot of fun.
October 9, 1955 (Sunday) I went to church this morning. This afternoon, Dee, Johnny, Mary Glenn and I went riding up on Lookout Mountain.
A picture of Johnny I made that afternoon beside Dee’s 1950 (light green) Ford.
October 21, 1955 (Friday) Dear Diary, Dee and I went to the 23rd Street Drive-In, saw “Strange Lady in Town”. He’s right sweet.
Well, there it is. The first indication that I might be falling for this guy.
October 22, 1955 (Saturday) Dear Diary, I cleaned house. Got a letter from Allen. He’s getting mighty smart.
I don’t remember what Allen wrote that ticked me off, but in my typical fashion with him, I didn’t let it go unnoticed.
October 25, 1955 (Tuesday) Dear Diary, I wrote Allen two smart letters. I’ll probably wish I hadn’t. I love him but he makes me angry.
November 4, 1955 (Friday) Dear Diary, I bought Allen an I.D. bracelet to send him for Christmas. I went to the movie with Dee tonight. I told him about Allen.
Although Dee was 23 years old, he had never been in a serious relationship. He said he had never thought about getting married, or had no desire to do so until he met me. Of course, that was about ALL I thought about. Since we had not gotten serious, I hadn’t seen the need to tell him about Allen, but I could sense that he was beginning to care for me, so I thought I’d better tell him. He seemed o.k. with it, but I think the thought that he had some competition only made him more interested.
November 8, 1955 (Tuesday) Dear Diary, Dee and I went to drive-in and saw “House of Bamboo”. Mother and I had a fuss and I was still crying and upset when he picked me up. He petted me and calmed me down. He is so sweet to me.
November 12, 1955 (Saturday) Dear Diary, I got a real sweet letter from Allen. He wants to know if I still want to get married.
I’m sure that I wrote Allen back saying that, of course, I still wanted to get married. Which only made matters worse, considering what would happen later.
November 18, 1955 (Friday) Dear Diary, Dee wanted me to go skating, but I wouldn’t. We went to the movie and saw “The Long Gray Line”.
Dee loved roller skating, but I had never mastered it. I had been to the skating rink with him a couple of times, but didn’t enjoy it. On the other hand, I loved dancing, but he didn’t. We really didn’t have a lot in common.
November 19, 1955 (Saturday) Dear Diary, Dee came down today and tonight we double dated with some of his friends. I believe Dee loves me, but I hope he doesn’t.
November 21, 1955 (Monday) Dear Diary, I went with Dee to the Brainerd skating rink tonight, but I didn’t skate. I’m not sure about my feelings for him.
November 22, 1955 (Tuesday) Dear Diary, I stayed home tonight and watched T.V. I wish Allen were here and that I’d never gone with Dee.
I was beginning to suspect that this man might be my destiny, but I was denying it and wishing it wasn’t so.